Bittersweet

Over break I had an interesting situation happen. It was something that I had been wanting for a long time and for the oppurtunity to present it self was one of the best Christmas gifts I could ever recieve. I guess your wondering what I am talking about.

Basically me and my ex we talkin and he brought up me and him gettin back together. There is a backsground story that I really do not feel like going into that makes me and him gettin back together so significant. But anyway I was sooooooo ready to get back with him. He said think about it and then call me. I didn't need to think about it, I already had an answer. So later that day I sent him a facebook message and spilled my soul to him and the next day I called him. Then I called the next day and the next and the next. Still no answer nor a return phone call.

That made me mad but it made me realize something. I was making him a necessity when he was making me an option. Its crazy to think someone who says they love you and only see themself with you can turn around and treat you like nothing. And the crazy part is that I was talkin to somebody else and I was going to drop him to get back with my ex. I'm glad I didnt tho. Becuz Demond has really turned out to be what and who I needed at this point in my life. And you know what, I love him.

It hurts to think of how I almost allowed myself to played and miss out on a great guy. Dude we can still be cool, but after winter break I don't know if I can get back with you. Even though I love you, I have enuff sense to realize that I deserve more than that. And I feel that I have found what I deserve in Demond!!!!!!!!!!